Today's blog is about my experiences of being a dyspraxic pupil at Audenshawe County Primary School.
After surviving 6 months at Heaton Moor my parents sent Robin to yet another special school and I was sent to Audenshawe County Primary school know as Lumb Lane, a Victorian building with the infant’s school playground separated from the junior school one by a thick brick wall and a big wooden gate. I was relieved that there was a class full of children my own age but making friends with them wasn’t easy. Some children bullied me I did have friends but I was so insecure I used to give them half my sweets when I got pocket money.
I
used to daydream a lot and get into
trouble for not paying attention. One day all the class had lined up to go into
the classroom next door. I hadn't noticed and suddenly realised that I had been deserted and while they were all enjoying
chocolate fingers and milk with a straw
out of a third of a pint milk bottle an amused teacher came to look for me. I
was sat blubbing all on my own and wondered where all my class mates had gone.
I
would get smacked for answering the teachers back when I did not intend to be
cheeky yet again I hadn't picked up the hidden curriculum that you don’t give your opinion on a matter once the
teacher had said her piece. Sometimes
when I made a comment or answered a teachers question the whole class would
roar with laughter even when I was being serious. I used to fall over a lot and
cut my knees usually crying when I did this until I realised that it did not
hurt that much and I would be more popular if I did not make a fuss if I did not
cry every time I fell over.
I
was a very sensitive child who wept out of sheer frustration. I found P.E.
Maths and Spelling a very difficult. I knew I was different from other children
and considered to be inferior by both teachers and pupils. It did not help that
when I was about 7 Mrs Herbert a kindly older woman who loved playing the grand
piano noticed that I had trouble seeing the blackboard and I had to wear a
horrible pink framed unflattering pair of glasses, which did not enhance my
portly appearance. ‘specky for eyes was added to my increasing list of insults
by my peers. I have memories of trying to do a daisy pattern and having a tantrum because my my pencil
would not do what I wanted it to do and all the other kids did. My work rarely
went on the wall. I did not establish a dominant hand until I was about 8 and
thus was because I was encouraged to use my right hand and at the dinner table I used my knife and fork the wrong way round
and a lunch time supervisor kept correcting me. I still sometimes set the table
the wrong way round and wonder if no-one
had interfered would I have been left
handed like most creative people?
By
the time I was 8, I could master the daisy pattern and my peers had moved onto harder patterns. I
never got my art work displayed at all. I didn’t get specialist
support but get extra help from student teachers on placement for maths and
English. I found long division the hardest task to master. When the headmaster
‘Bumble Bee’ (who admitted his singing voice droned like a bee) covered for a few
months for a teacher who was off sick, during art the only subject I was any
good at and really enjoyed, he made me copy out all the spellings I had got
wrong in a previous spelling test. His attempt to teach me how to spell failed.
I remember once being
afraid to go home as I had received a really poor report and ‘ran away’ to my
friend’s house. My reports usually said “could do better”. I was bottom of the
class in maths and English, I was good at creative writing and when I read my
compositions out other children enjoyed them, but this quality was not
encouraged by some teachers.
I overheard my Mum
discussing yet another bad school report, which consisted of 5Ds and a C for
art including English in spite of me being good at creative writing. My mother
suspected she had another child with ‘minimal Brain Damage’. I was taken for
tests at the Duchess of York children’s hospital for assessment. Tests included
drawing what a square would look like if only half was shown, when folded open,
which was easy. I don’t know what type of test I was given but it did not
resemble anything like the neurological tests I was given for dyspraxia or the
Educational psychologist tests I was given for dyslexia. At the end of the
tests I was told that I was very clever by my mum and that I had the ability of
a child a year older than me. My mum admitted years later that she was told
that I was an intelligent child but an under achiever. My parents did not
investigate why I was underachieving and their denial that I had a disability
made them assume I was being lazy, From then on I got into trouble for
not doing well at school I was a constant disappointment to my parents who
expected me to compensate for my brothers difficulties. They were told I did
not have the same condition as Robin.
Although I could get by in French
skipping but was not that good at it a craze of the late 60s and early 70s
where two girls stood with a loop of elastic at progressively higher points of
their bodies while a third girl jumped in and out of the elastic, I could not do
the hand clapping games to save my life. Even though I was a tomboy I was
useless at football, they assumed my ineptitude was because I was a girl. I
would fight with the boys and would win if it was a weedy boy just by sitting
on him because I was getting fatter every day and was one of the tallest ones in
my class until they all over took me. Then we moved to Gatley and I was looking
forwards to going to Lumb Head my new school. Now that’s another story.
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